On Tuesday in my creative writing class we had a guest speaker come in and talk about what her life is like as professional writer. My dream has always been to write a bestseller and turn writing into a career. But Tuesday I discovered that I don't want to be a writer. I don't want to be the wife who never spends time with her husband and has to leave her kids for a long periods of time while touring around the country. I realized that I don't want any part of it. The money isn't worth it. The time isn't worth it. The effort isn't worth it. When I have a family, I want that to be my sole focus. I want to be able to play with my kids and not worry about who I'm leaving them with for the next week while I go off to sign books for strangers.
I don't want to be a writer.
So....I think a new blog name is in the works. And we'll see in a few weeks where life decides to take me.
Yahoooo! A post. Oh Alyssa, you will always be a writer even if you never decide to tour or do book signings. It's in you. You will record your family's story and tell your children and your grandchildren stories (and probably record them). Your talent will find lots of outlets and uses (especially in a family and as a member of the Church). It sounds like you just don't want to be the writer your speaker was. Don't despair, you'll be an Alyssa writer and it will fit you just right.
ReplyDeleteI think I just decided that I'd rather do something more worthwhile in my life. While I still like to write, I don't want that to define me anymore. I'm considering going into Elementary Education, but that's still up in the air.
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